Dear Guard your Eyes,
 
My husband is 30 years old and we've been married for 8 years. For the last 7 years (perhaps even longer, I don’t know) he's been a Lust addict. I've caught him with newspapers, with a magazine, on the internet, masturbating, etc. There have been many ups and downs over the years (mostly downs) and I'm slowly reaching a point of despair. I am so full of questions and doubts, and most of all I have no-one to talk to. We recently started therapy with someone local …

I am 29 years old chasidish, and married for over 10 years with children. I’ve had a crazy upbringing, crazy family, painful teen years, & a painful life overall. That’s why I call myself JIP = Jew in PAIN
 
I grew up in a very large family. My dad never worked, so we never had any money. Since he was often home, he had a lot of extra time to harass us kids. We moved around the world often, which made things “really nice” – being newcomers every few years. Of …

It was from the depths of physical, spiritual, emotional and mental hell that the leaders of GuardYourEyes pulled me out. They are nothing less than malachei Hashem. The first step of the 12 steps in any addiction recovery program, is to admit your powerlessness over your addiction and to hand it over to the G-d of our understanding.  I handed my horrific and life threatening addiction over to GYE, and they along with Hashem, saved me from a sure physical and spiritual death. 
I grew up in a modern orthodox home with …

By Thomas Boswell
Washington Post Staff Writer
Tuesday, March 23, 2010; D01
Everybody, not just the famous, has both a public and a private face. Those two versions of ourselves are never completely reconciled, nor would most of us want them to be. Our interior life, our soul, our truest sense of ourselves, whatever you call it, is too difficult and changing a thing to summarize easily or share widely.
But when the gap between the public face and the private self becomes a vast gulf, people go into crisis. The split inside you …

(See Aaron's story on this page) 
Here is the e-mail we got from Aaron now:

B"H doing well. Still going strong, although the summer is tough. I'm one year clean this Sunday, you can  update my chart on the "Wall of Honor". That doesn't mean I'm "in control" or "recovered" though, not only are those conclusions dangerous, they're not true! I find that my madregah is proportionate to my connection to Ruchniyus. If I learn every day and occupy my mind with Torah and Hashkafah, I'm in good shape. If I let even brief thoughts …

One of our goals on GuardYourEyes is to help people "Hit bottom while still on top". Don't wait for the addiction to destroy your life!
 
Please read through some of these stories to see where the addiction leads to, and get the help you need now – while you’re still on top, no matter what it takes!
 
1) Where it All Leads
 
2) Serial Killers
 
3) Women tell of their husband’s (or ex-husband’s) addiction
 
4) The Typical Suffering of the Wife of an Addict
 
5) A Typical e-mail to GYE
 
6) Dov’s Story
 

 
One of …

A famous serial killer, Ted Bundy, blames porn-addiction on his actions:
 
In the Dobson interview before his execution, Bundy said that violent pornography played a major role in his sex crimes. According to Bundy, as a young boy he found "outside the home again, in the local grocery store, in a local drug store, the soft core pornography that people called soft core… And from time to time we would come across pornographic books of a harder nature…." Bundy said, "It happened in stages, gradually. My experience with pornography generally, but with …

I feel that the time is overdue for me to write my story to someone and try to get as much help as possible. 
 
First, I should emphasize that I did not grow up in a religious house or part of a religious community at all. I have only recently become a Baal Teshuva.
 
I was introduced to pornography magazines at a young age, perhaps 10. I had a friend who had movie channels that showed smut late at night and we would watch together when I would sleep over. When people …

"Sci1977" tells his story for the first time:
 
After much soul searching and deep honesty, I finally feel ready to share this story as I have a little bit of sobriety under my belt (no pun intended …
I was trying to write out my story now for about a week, but I had a lot of trouble doing so. I found myself repulsed by how I had let myself get this way. Since I started writing, all that keeps pouring into my mind is, "How sick have I been?" …

By "ShmiratAinayim"
Whose original story appears on our site over here

I had built-up a very close kesher with my rebbe who knew everything about me, for better and for worse. Although I was a very good bachur, I still had my quirks, and I hid nothing from him. Except for one secret. There was a whole side to me that I had never revealed to anyone. It was my secret; I had to live with it alone, and could never reveal it to a soul. I was a p**n junkie, and …