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Voting closed: January 18, 2010, 05:03:56 PM

[TrYiNg]

sounds great to me.
whatever helps you,sis.

Uri, u da man!!
Now we know it ain't all talk..

That whole long post must've been hard to post.
Proud to have such a bro

KUTGW!
and welcome back !!

[Ano Nymous]

I'm very impressed by your honesty and self-awareness Uri! IYH by me

[imtrying25]

Ok.This is quite hard for me to say,but I must anyway.
People have been telling me that I've been too intense on the forum.
Also,I sense in myself this annoyance sometimes when I go through the forum.
I was aware the whole time that it comes from a need for some control and stability.
But until now I didn't realize the extent.
Chatai ani mazkir hayom...

As I work with rav shlachter on trying to let go of my various controls and "securities",I find myself desperate at times for any form of security.
My desire for an emotional connection with a woman is stronger than it has been in a long time.
And this desperation showed itself on the forum,too.
As this is one of my biggest places of security,I sometimes hold on too much.
I find myself spending an abnormal amount of time on the forum,and sensing any "controls" on the forum very acutely.
And I have responded in kind.I have so strongly wanted to ensure this place of security that I have been too strong minded and even confrontational at times,all to feel secure.
I so badly want to be sure that I am headed in the right direction that I have pushed my kichsata too strongly at times,just to feel that my path is correct for me.
As I sensed this,I tried taking a step back,but I found leaving this place of security a little too difficult.
So from now on,I will try to let go of this need to control and hear people out more,without feeling too threatened.
Alas,Rome was not built in a day,but I shall try my hardest.

My love to all
-Uri

Uri this post brought tears to my face. Your willingness to do whatever it takes to do what is right is truly amazing. Im so jealous of you. Hope i can get there too one day. And dont forget the vort. Yehuda said tzudkah mimeni, and there was left no p'gam. we love you bro. And keep in touch.

[Guest]

Recently I've been feeling a good bit of anxiety and depression,something which for a while dissappeared.
I've been thinking alot about what rav shlachter said:a person cannot handle being a place with neither control or trust.That's how ive been feeling lately.Ive been working on letting go of control alot,and trust takes a bit to build,so right now im sort of hanging in thin air.
Maybe meanwhile,i could try for some control...though im not sure exactly how to do that anymore...
I just feel tired and worn out.
Life is so big and scary sometimes.
What can I do to assuage my fears?
Hashem!!

[guardureyes]

Ok.This is quite hard for me to say,but I must anyway.
People have been telling me that I've been too intense on the forum.
Also,I sense in myself this annoyance sometimes when I go through the forum.
I was aware the whole time that it comes from a need for some control and stability.
But until now I didn't realize the extent.
Chatai ani mazkir hayom...

As I work with rav shlachter on trying to let go of my various controls and "securities",I find myself desperate at times for any form of security.
My desire for an emotional connection with a woman is stronger than it has been in a long time.
And this desperation showed itself on the forum,too.
As this is one of my biggest places of security,I sometimes hold on too much.
I find myself spending an abnormal amount of time on the forum,and sensing any "controls" on the forum very acutely.
And I have responded in kind.I have so strongly wanted to ensure this place of security that I have been too strong minded and even confrontational at times,all to feel secure.
I so badly want to be sure that I am headed in the right direction that I have pushed my kichsata too strongly at times,just to feel that my path is correct for me.
As I sensed this,I tried taking a step back,but I found leaving this place of security a little too difficult.
So from now on,I will try to let go of this need to control and hear people out more,without feeling too threatened.
Alas,Rome was not built in a day,but I shall try my hardest.

My love to all
-Uri

Uri, between this post and what I've been reading on your blog (especially the story with that girl recently), I can only say one word: "Gadlus".

[habaletaher]

Welcome back Uri, I'm kinda new here, but I quickly picked up how much you mean to people here, how sad they were to see you leave, and how glad they are to see you back!

Thanks for coming back!

[dov]

Welcome schmelcome.............................ok, welcome back Uri!

[imtrying25]

Welcome schmelcome.............................ok, welcome back Uri!

Im so excited to see, that the Rebbe ( bardy ) is having affect on the Rebbi ( dov).

And this is even before the woodford kumzitz.

[guardureyes]

Well, Dov considers Bardy his Rebbe, so I guess that makes Bardy EVERYONE'S Rebbe 

[letakain22]

Recently I've been feeling a good bit of anxiety and depression,something which for a while dissappeared.
I've been thinking alot about what rav shlachter said:a person cannot handle being a place with neither control or trust.That's how ive been feeling lately.Ive been working on letting go of control alot,and trust takes a bit to build,so right now im sort of hanging in thin air.
Maybe meanwhile,i could try for some control...though im not sure exactly how to do that anymore...
I just feel tired and worn out.
Life is so big and scary sometimes.
What can I do to assuage my fears?
Hashem!!

uri, you're really changing for the better. i'm so proud!

and you answered you're own question?
What can i do to assuage my fears?
answer: HASHEM. let go and let G-d.
you rock, uri!
KOTB
(100 smithereen pts.)

[imtrying25]

Now you have 2 jobs letakain. explaing to theone what gye points are and explaing to the rest of us what smithereen points are!

[bardichev]

"I"
Am not a Rebbe

"I" am not a talmid

To be a talmid of RebbRebBer=DOV

One must surrender the "I"

If you want to understand that in un-dovish see email #670 by kanesher

 bard_chev

[imtrying25]

"I"
Am not a Rebbe

"I" am not a talmid

To be a talmid of RebbRebBer=DOV

One must surrender the "I"

If you want to understand that in un-dovish see email #670 by kanesher

 bard_chev

i dont know about your "I"s and whatever but you are meshugehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[7Up]

"I"
Am not a Rebbe

"I" am not a talmid

To be a talmid of RebbRebBer=DOV

One must surrender the "I"

If you want to understand that in un-dovish see email #670 by kanesher

 bard_chev

This may be one of the clearest 'R' Dov's Ive heard in a while. Brilliant in its simplicity as always

[7Up]

It just hit me right now.
My sons leaving
spreading his wings beyond mom's shore
 

I really am so excited for him;
the doors waiting to be opened
and paths to be discovered and explored

But, but...