Shmilu, welcome back!
Hope to hear from you as you move forward and upwards...I'm sure you already know how healing this forum can be, and how much support you can get - so let's do this! one day at a time...
Haba - when people know that you do that, it might seem weird, but very often they'll eventually start to respect you more.
And after all, we do need to have priorities in life, and smashing all those bricks is clearly close to the top!