I am 29 years old chasidish, and married for over 10 years with children. I’ve had a crazy upbringing, crazy family, painful teen years, & a painful life overall. That’s why I call myself JIP = Jew in PAIN
 
I grew up in a very large family. My dad never worked, so we never had any money. Since he was often home, he had a lot of extra time to harass us kids. We moved around the world often, which made things “really nice” – being newcomers every few years. Of …

It was from the depths of physical, spiritual, emotional and mental hell that the leaders of GuardYourEyes pulled me out. They are nothing less than malachei Hashem. The first step of the 12 steps in any addiction recovery program, is to admit your powerlessness over your addiction and to hand it over to the G-d of our understanding.  I handed my horrific and life threatening addiction over to GYE, and they along with Hashem, saved me from a sure physical and spiritual death. 
I grew up in a modern orthodox home with …

(See Aaron's story on this page) 
Here is the e-mail we got from Aaron now:

B"H doing well. Still going strong, although the summer is tough. I'm one year clean this Sunday, you can  update my chart on the "Wall of Honor". That doesn't mean I'm "in control" or "recovered" though, not only are those conclusions dangerous, they're not true! I find that my madregah is proportionate to my connection to Ruchniyus. If I learn every day and occupy my mind with Torah and Hashkafah, I'm in good shape. If I let even brief thoughts …

"Sci1977" tells his story for the first time:
 
After much soul searching and deep honesty, I finally feel ready to share this story as I have a little bit of sobriety under my belt (no pun intended …
I was trying to write out my story now for about a week, but I had a lot of trouble doing so. I found myself repulsed by how I had let myself get this way. Since I started writing, all that keeps pouring into my mind is, "How sick have I been?" …

By "ShmiratAinayim"
Whose original story appears on our site over here

I had built-up a very close kesher with my rebbe who knew everything about me, for better and for worse. Although I was a very good bachur, I still had my quirks, and I hid nothing from him. Except for one secret. There was a whole side to me that I had never revealed to anyone. It was my secret; I had to live with it alone, and could never reveal it to a soul. I was a p**n junkie, and …

 "X-addict" posted on our forum:
Hello, regards from Stamford Hill. I’m 20 years old and have a computer with internet access in my room. I used to be a crazy addict, seriously now, I was, like, the king of p**n, but things in my life have recently come crashing down, and it’s made me turn to God as opposed to pressing the self destruct button.
I have tried everything in the past to stop watching p**n, I mean everything (except throwing my PC out the window). …

A comment by DMK on Aish.com’s recent article about porn addiction which mentions our network.

I got addicted in 7th grade, then, B”H, found God (or maybe God found me) by 11th grade. Living at home the whole time, I’ve never had therapy or a wife to work it out with, but I too labored under the delusion that once I got married, my problems would be solved and the addiction would go away. Also, like others commented here, I would swear every Yom Kippur …

Fire in the House of Amram!
A great big MAZAL TOV to our member "Nura B'Amram" who has reached a full 90 days today and joined our Wall of Hashem's Honor on the Yartzeit of the Holy Ohr Hachayim Hakadosh.
May the light of this holy "Nura" (fire) continue to be an "Ohr Hachayim – a Light of Life" to all of us on the forum for years to come!
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In honor of Nura's Simcha we ask everyone to download this Niggun and rejoice together with him. It is called the "Bardichever …

We were married nine years ago. I had my misgivings from the beginning- his parents didn’t have a good marriage- but besides for that, my husband was loving, caring and devoted- I never would have believed what would come to be.
After we agreed to move to my hometown, my husband fell into a deep depression. I did not understand the depth of his pain and suffering and he could not admit it to me. The truth is that he did not want to live in my hometown. He always had …

We would like to welcome a true soldier and hero to our community today. He calls himself “Dov” and his recent post on our forum where he shares his own personal story spanning 25 years, is one of the most “eye-opening” stories I have ever read. I really must share it with you all today, because there is so much we can learn from it.
One of our goals at GuardUrEyes, is to help people “Hit Bottom while still On Top” (as we mentioned in Chizuk e-mail #441 on this page). So even if your level …